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December 31, 2013
The clouds are cruel tonight, hiding the moon and stars from us. We'll just close our eyes to see what we need.

remember when: back then and yet to come

December 22, 2013
A book design project that I've been involved with for nearly ten years is warming up again. Graphic design is daytime occupation, and when I'm not writing books I enjoy designing them. This one will be a challenge on my time while working full-time and trying to write a novel, but it is a dear project, very worth it.

thinking about: place names

December 14, 2013
Thirteen days of work. Yes, fun can be exhausting.

resting: nope can't, other projects

November 28, 2013
We've acepted the final story, and setting a release date of December 20th for the issue #24 of Three-lobed Burning Eye.

editing: 3LBE

November 21, 2013
There are places in the house that I forget exist. The old wallpaper hiding in the linen closet, the dormer of the attic eaves, the basement closet. They smell like somewhere else and often change dimensions from the previous visit. One cannot decide to hurry away or sit in them and listen.

working: learning the day job

November 10, 2013
Sadly, the latest issue of the magazine didn't come together in October, as planned. We're caught up on reading submissions, but six of the right stories just haven't come in yet. Hoping this will change by the year's end.

reading: Bradbury again

November 5, 2013
I dressed as Poe this Halloween and one of my friends thought I was a statue, so it was either somewhat convincing or he wasn't wearing his glasses, and was startled when I began to recite the "The Conquerer Worm" poem.

watching: some British shows

October 13, 2013
I'll be reading fiction and a guest panelist at OryCon 35 this Nov. 8–10 in Portland, OR. See my schedule here. Looking forward to discussions and inspirations.

reading: Captain America comics

October 10, 2013
The novel is taking a break from me. It feels neglected and unsatisfied in time and attention. I'm working on short fiction and 3LBE now, in the hours after the day job.

working: this & that

October 1, 2013
Though I've never been interested in creating best-of lists (especially at year), October has always been a special month, and I just wanted to recall the movies that have made made a lasting scary or creepy impression on me.

Classics: Jaws, Frankenstein, Bride of Frankenstein, Freaks, Night of the Demon, Village of the Damned, Nosferatu, Alien, The Fly, Silence of the Lambs, Altered States, The Thing, Nightmare on Elm Street, Halloween, An American Werewold in London, The Exorcist, Suspiria, Santa Sangre,The Changeling, Re-Animator, The Haunting, Hellraiser

Newer Favorites: Pontypool, Let the Right One In, The Descent, The Devil's Backbone, [Rec], Ringu, The Host, Session 9

reading: The Coffin (Phil Hester, Mike Huddleston)

September 15, 2013
Starting a new job. This will enable me to pay bills. And breathe.

reading: Stranger in Olondria (Sofia Samatar)

August 28, 2013
Plaguing myself with questions about direction and quality. And, I now realize, about purpose. Things have been difficult for awhile now, not sure how long. Hoping to wake to good news.

reading: The Hunger Games (Suzanne Collins)

August 22, 2013
Happy Birthdays this week to two of my favorite writers: Ray Bradbury (today) and HPL (20th).

reading: Daemon (Harry Shannon)

August 15, 2013
Trying to balance design projects and writing. It should be simple to set times each day to focus on these, and projects are moving forward, but I haven't been enjoying it lately. Getting through the storm.

reading: Circus: Fantasy Under the Big Top (ed. Ekaterina Sedia)

August 8, 2013
I've just started a new writing organization. Immediately after its formation, I was excluded from membership for not having enough hair, and they disappeared underground to build their lava control machine.

reading: Best Horror of the Year, Vol. 4 (ed. Ellen Datlow)

July 27, 2013
Headed out camping with The Dame for our five-year anniversary. We'll spend two days in Mt. Hood National Park, along with the dog. It will be good to unplug and walk among the trees.

reading: Sisters Brothers (Patrick deWitt)

July 22, 2013
It's become clear that I cannot afford to travel to my good friend's wedding, and my heart is heavy about it.

watching: Pacific Rim (directed by Guillermo del Toro)

July 20, 2013
Keep coming back to a particular story, trying to decide if some scenes are surprises or just don't fit.

editing: short story

July 19, 2013
This movie is like The Prophecy crossed with Maximum Overdrivetrying to be The Terminator, and nowhere near as good as the closing credits from any of them.

watching: dumb unnamable movie (not even called The Unnamable)

July 17, 2013
Very excited that Bibliotheca Fantastica is just released from Dagan Books, an anthology edited by Don Pizzaro, featuring 20 stories of wierd and wondrous books, and stories within stories, including my new tale "The Crimson Codex." Buy the ebook from the publisher, print version coming soon.

published: short fiction

July 8, 2013
Great talks at the con that churned a few toothed-wheels in my brain. Saw friends old and new. … Came home to sad news about the topic that I don't talk about on here, perhaps some day. Promises were broken, reality clarified.

resting: after con

July 5, 2013
Steaming around at GEARCon, schedule on my events page.

conferencing: GEARCon

June 20, 2013
M.K. Hobson has invited me to participate in a few panels at the annual GEARCon in Portland, July 5–7. Looking forward to discussing alternate histories and meeting many immaculately dressed persons.

reading: The World More Full of Weeping (by Robert J. Wiersema)

June 18, 2013
World Horror Con was a very enjoyable event this year, filled with great people and great books, and surrounded by the history and food of New Orleans. Over the extra days there, the dame (yes, this is her preferred term) and I consumed many gumbos and explored cemeteries and the original Sazerac bar with Steve Scearce and Bear Weiter, and (perhaps a bit too much) of Bourbon Street wtih Orrin Grey and Chris Morey. Highlights included… This was the first year I attended the Stoker Awards, and was so moved by tributes to Ray Bradbury, and message from Clive Barker, and pleased to hear Caitlín K. receive the award for The Drowning Girl because that book haunts me in so many ways. She hosted a kaffeeklatch that included a short paleontology lecture with imaginary Cretaceous Era map that still, I'm sure, lurks in the yellow fleurs of that room's wallpaper, and caught up chatting with her and Kathryn since Readercon and HPLFF2010. Squeed at the anthology panel when Ellen Datlow mentioned 3LBE as a magazine publishing good stories. The agents' panel was genuine and refreshing, and I wished my novel was ready to pitch, but not this year. Enjoyed talking with Gemma Files (of whom I can say I'm a fan and an editor) about writing, new works, and Christopher Lee. Jason and Sunni Brock hosted a late gathering in their room next to unmarked door 666. And some, but not nearly enough time with Erika Holt, JJA, the ChiZine folks, and Mr. Shivers himself. The conference was all over too quickly, leaving the dame and I a few days to eat eat eat! explore the city via more cemeteries, oysters, cocktails, the Voodoo Museum, river walk, local music, and the Pharmacy Museum (my favorite). That town can keep you up late, and we obliged. Back home now and happily exhausted. Waiting to hear about a job thing.

reading: At the Mouth of the River of Bees (by Kij Johnson)

June 5, 2013
Looking forward to seeing everyone at World Horror Con in New Orleans, June 13-16. You can find me seated among the authors and editors at the mass signing with copies of FISH, 3LBE, and other fictions. Otherwise at the bar, or a nearby establishment sampling the gumbo. The grittier, the better.

reading: A Pretty Mouth (by Molly Tanzer)

May 28, 2013
Issue #23 of Three-lobed Burning Eye magazine is now live with new weird and wonderful fiction by Dixon Chance, Gemma Files, Daniel Ausema, Claude Lalumière, Lawrence Conquest, and J.M. McDermott. Read them online for free, or buy a PDF copy. Support the magazine by purchasing from the online store.

editing: 3LBE

May 8, 2013
The H.P. Lovecraft Film Festival & CthulhuCon descended on Portland with its usual dark charm. I've enjoyed this event for the last decade of its 18-year run, and helped with some organizing more recently. This year saw more short films, readings, and panels than previous fests, with an added gaming theme, creating a many-ringed circus that I could see every performance, nor meet everyone I had hoped to. My highlights included readings by Camille Alexa, Molly Tanzer, Edward Morris, Cody Goodfellow, Joe Pulver, Nick Mamatas, Amanda Downum, Orrin Grey, panels with Brian Yuzna and Richard Stanley, and shorts Odokuro, Brutal Relax, Demonen. I was thrilled to read my FISH story, and show visitors around our fair city. Everyone departed too soon. Check out the guests and schedule to see what you missed.

watching: Prince of Darkness (Dir. by John Carpenter)

May 1, 2013
My story “They Shall Flourish and Spread” appears today in the new issue of Crossed Genres Magazine. You can read it online.

watching: Wonderfalls (produced by Bryan Fuller [no relation!])

April 29, 2013
The print edition of the anthology FISH comes out today. You can order it here and read 33 science fiction, fantasy, retold and new myths stories on a fishy theme by writers Camille Alexa, Polenth Blake, Cat Rambo, Ken Liu, Claude Lalumière, Amanda C. Davis, and myself. Beatutiful cover art and interior sketches by Galen Dara. The ebook versions are available from publisher Dagan Books and other e-outlets.

reading: The Drowning Girl (by Caitlín R. Kiernan)

April 20, 2013
After many years of short fiction, I'm working on a novel. It's too early to talk about character or theme or genre, but I've begun the journey and will see where it leads.

working: something new

April 16, 2013
There's a rather famous author who published a creepy story in his first shorts collection that had previously been a holiday card he'd sent to friends about twenty years ago. In some way that inspired me to make a fiction calendar as a holiday gift about four years ago. So I wrote twelve flash fiction stories and a few friends and family read them. Some of the stories have been since been published in magazines. Now the rather famous author is publishing a dozen stories named for the months of the year. I claim no responsibility for this occurrence.

watching: Ripper Street

April 12, 2013
My family gather on the coast this weekend, one year after Dad's passing, where we spread some of his ashes into the Pacific Ocean. He would have enjoyed seeing the herd of elk wander by, the hundreds of intact sand dollars, hearing the sea lions, playing games with the grandkids, griling dinner on the deck, and sampling the Kraken rum. We are not the same without him, and it doesn't get any easier. But we have many memories.

going: to the ocean

April 5, 2013
The next issue of Three-lobed Burning Eye is close to completion. I'm excited about each of these stories, and aiming for publication in May.

editing: 3LBE

March 25, 2013
I remember one night when I was ten and we were staying with friends. The kids all slept in an attic room, and after the house went dark they started telling ghost stories. The other kids were a few years younger and their stories didn't make much sense, like there was this ghost who was all brown with polka dots and liked sandwiches and went by the name of Billiam and was allergic to cats — no real story. They kept listing and giggling and I laughed out of courtesy. When it was my turn I understood the audience and recalled how big a deal they made about the nightlight, so I told the benign one about the people who entered the haunted house and when the ghost jumped out it was sooooo scared of the living humans that it zoomed away down the street, whimpering in fear. Well the kids blubbered in the dark, and I couldn't believe it, so I added a quick reluctant epilogue to clarify: see, because the ghost wasn't scary at all. But it was too late. The other kids cried and screamed for their parents. The adults came running. They asked what happend and the kids sold me out, they said I told the most frightening tale about a ruthless child-devouring spirit. The parents scolded me and said no more ghost stories.

That was probably when I realized some people aren't going to like my stories, but that I don't care for their opinion, especially if they're not really listening. Also it was about my fourth realization that the world is an unfair place.

watching: Headhunters (dir. Morten Tyldum)

March 10, 2013
Headed back to Nebraska to take care of Mom, who's undergoing her second cataract surgery. Haven't been back there since Dad's passing last spring, but there are many more memories. May get to see a few old friends.

going: back home

March 5, 2013
I wear many hats. But not of them contain rotors, magic, or other worlds. Need a new hat shop.

reading: Best Stories of the American West Vol. 1 (ed. Marc Jaffe)

February 20, 2013
Took a break from writing and new website projects to get away from desk sitting and do something with my hands. The kitchen has always needed an exhaust hood. When I work in some parts of the house, like the basement or attic, they seem like other worlds that do not properly belong.

reading: Deadwood (Pete Dexter)

February 8, 2013
Lately my thoughts ride off into natural landscapes, seeking a place of green and size, flowing with animal calls, unsullied by asphalt and exhaust. If I watch a movie, my choice keeps reaching for a western, just to glimpse an open place. It should be easy to take a day trip to the gorge for a hike, but car problems aside, this doesn't seem enough.

reading: Dr. Adder (K.W. Jeter)

January 29, 2013
A new year. May it be more full of words and ideas, and contain less death and unwanted surprises. Considered many epic events for my birthday, but settled on quiet cocktail time with friends. Next year, though, we're having a sleepover on Mars. Start packing.

having: a birthday


Andrew S. Fuller is a writer of fictions — usually speculative, often weird, sometimes horrific. These stories appear in magazines, anthologies, and other forms. More →


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